Es mi familia. Es chica y rota pero es buena, es muy buena.<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n (This is my family. It’s small and broken but it’s good. It’s very good. – The person who quoted this saw it in Spanish. I don’t know if the English version ends the same.)<\/p>\n The broken part<\/strong><\/p>\n I’m a bit bemused by those articles on how online harassment drives women from technology<\/a>, articles that say things like you can’t just delete the comments and emails that threaten to rape you and your children. I don’t have that problem at all. When I read a comment like that, I think,<\/p>\n “Some idiot said something stupid on the Internet. “<\/p><\/blockquote>\n This bothers me no more than the fact that Olav Kirschenko in Russia didn’t get the promotion he wanted to assistant manager at the McDonalds in Red Square. It affects me not at all.<\/p>\n A couple of posts have talked about being afraid because the person found out where they lived, came to their office, they were in serious fear of being raped or killed. I have never felt that fear. It is not simply having been the world judo champion, although that helps. It’s that combined with not having grown up in yuppie Santa Monica. I’ve been in more fist fights than I can count, had knives pulled on me and three times been faced with a man with a gun. I have some scars but I’m still here. Our Chief Marketing Officer asked me what I would do if someone actually did show up at the house and threaten my lovely young daughter, I told her matter-of-factly,<\/p>\n “I’d probably stab him or hit him with a brick.”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n I’m little. I have no intention of fighting fair and I believe down deep in my soul in the immortal words of \u00a0Zapata,<\/p>\n “It is better to die on your feet than live on your knees.”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n Darling Daughter Number 3 said in an interview that she would die in the octagon before she would give up. She meant that most literally. It’s a choice people make to live their lives unbowed and unafraid.<\/p>\n Yes, I really am a psycho bitch. I’m not afraid of being killed and if someone showed up at my door and threatened me or my children, I could shoot him dead and it would not bother me in the slightest.<\/p>\n So — worries about crazy, misogynistic Internet trolls – not \u00a0a problem.\u00a0I don’t know about you, but I totally DO recognize that it is NOT okay that to sleep peacefully at night as a woman in technology\u00a0it is helpful to be a crazy psycho bitch willing to cheerfully off attackers .<\/p>\n The small part<\/strong><\/p>\n More than once, I’ve read a post by a woman in technology saying something along the lines of ,<\/p>\n “I’m not sure if there was discrimination against me or not. I just worked twice as hard as everyone else to prove myself.”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n And I wonder, “Didn’t it occur to you that’s pretty fucked up that you had to work twice as hard as everyone else?”. \u00a0I loved @shanley ‘s comments on twitter<\/a> about conference organizers who wanted a woman to speak but they couldn’t get Sheryl Sandberg. Was their male keynote speaker Mark Zuckerberg? I didn’t fucking think so. For those of you who are now put off by my language, let me get this straight – I’m supposed to be so tough that I am not put off by commenters threatening to rape me and my children, but ladylike enough not to swear?<\/p>\n Let’s talk about the twice as hard\/ qualified part. I graduated from Washington University in St. Louis when I was 19 years old, back in the 1970s, when I started programming with Fortran and Basic. \u00a0I finished my MBA when I was 21, along with winning the national judo championships and U.S. Open. I worked as an industrial engineer at General Dynamics for a few years, where I learned SAS and some languages no one uses any more. By 31 I had won a world championships in judo, earned another masters degree and Ph.D. and been programming for a dozen years on VAX and IBM mainframe systems. Over the next 24 years, I’ve published articles in scientific journals, presented at so many conferences around the U.S. and a couple in Canada that I have honestly lost track of the number. I’ve used high performance computing clusters, everything from DOS to Windows 8 and every version of the Mac OS since the first one. (When I married my late husband, he got me a Mac instead of an engagement ring, because it is what I wanted.) Most recently, I’ve been part of a two-person development team that created Spirit Lake: The Game – (you can buy it here) <\/a>, and we’re beta testing our second game, Fish Lake, in 8 schools starting this month.<\/p>\n When people talk about supporting women in tech, they look at Girls Who Code<\/a> \u00a0and Black Girls Code<\/a>, both of which I’m sure are very worthwhile programs. What troubles me, though, is the assumption that we need to focus only on young girls – in short, we, the oh-helpful ones, are the mentors and the solution to increase the representation of women in technology is 5 or 10 years out when these girls finish college or graduate school. WHAT ABOUT THE WOMEN WHO ARE HERE NOW?<\/p>\n If you are overlooking the women who are here now, what does that tell the girls you are supposedly bringing up to be the next generation of women in tech that you can overlook 15 years from now? Why do we hear about 16-year-old interns far more than women like me? If it is true, as the New York Times says<\/a>, that in 2001-2 28% of computer science degrees went to women compared to the 10% or so now – where are those women from 12 years ago?<\/p>\n It seems to me that when people are looking at minorities or women to develop in their fields, they are much more interested in the hypothetical idea of that cute 11-year-old girl being a computer scientist some day than of that thirty-something competing with them for market share or jobs. If there are venture capitalists or conference organizers or others out there that are sincerely trying to promote WOMEN who code, not girls, I’ve never met any. That doesn’t mean they don’t exist, but it means that whoever they are seeking out, it isn’t people like me, which is why I started out talking about my qualifications. I’ve pitched at start-up events a few times, I’ve gone to some meet-ups, I’ve written this blog for going on six years, presented at conferences, published papers. I’m not running around promoting myself but I’m not that hard to find, either.<\/p>\n What it comes down to is this, in the 37 years since I graduated from college, I have seen a lot of affirmative talk and seen goddamned little affirmative action. Instead, what I have seen is a continuing assumption that women are not interested in technology, are not particularly good at it, and not so much interest in really changing that. Read the wonderful post by Phillip Guo, Silent Technical Privilege <\/a>– where he talks about how people just assumed he knew what he was doing because he was an Asian-American male – yeah, my whole life has been the opposite of that. Yet, I’m still here.<\/p>\n
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But wait, there’s more. Our newest venture, the start-up, 7 Generation Games, has the potential to change the way math is taught and learne<\/a>d. We’ve received over $570,000 in external funding so far which has allowed us to give people jobs, provide the game free to low-income schools and it is having an impact on children’s academic achievement. Every day I learn something new.<\/p>\n